I'm Back Again

It's been a while, rather a year or more since I last wrote a blog. It may be because I lack the motivation, the time, or the will to do so. It will never be because I lack stories, 'cause every day of my life is full of them. :D

"Even the best fall down sometimes..."

Yan ang isa sa favorite songs ni Ate Loj ayon kay Kuya Bun. :D We shall do something. :D

Ayun. Uhm. Ang nais kong sabihin ngayon ay isang bagay na gusto kong i-express publicly hangga't kaya ko. Uhm. I've been thinking (because of watching too much Koreanovelas. JK.) what could happen to me if I lose something I don't expect to. It started more than a week ago, when my little brother asked me, "Ate, kung may kukunin sa'yo si Lord every year, ano uunahin mo?" Immediately, I answered him, "Kahit ano." The next day, I thought about it in a deep context... and I asked myself if I can really offer anything to Him, without regrets, without refusing or even thinking about it twice.

Then, after sharing it to an SV Ate, I agreed to what I answered my lil bro. I will and should give anything God asks of me. I started thinking of losing things that have so much importance to me. First is the people around me. Second is my hand. Third is my sense of sight.

In losing any of the people around me, I can do nothing else but to cope up with not having them around anymore. I'll get a little depressed, but I think it can't be helped. So yeah. In losing my hand, however, I think I'm gonna be crazy if it happens. Both my hands have almost equal significance to my everyday life. I can't imagine moving without one of them. I won't be able to play basketball or tetris, play the guitar or other instruments, cook comfortably, type fast and a lot of things. Third is my sense of sight. I don't know, but a dark life isn't what I want to have. HM. But I thought of something else when I imagined this happening to me. I figured that I would know who the people around me are by their smell or by their voice. I even thought of making a list of people sing to me: A.Kai, A.Loj, Choi, A.Ria, A.Alaya... There. :D Even if I'll be drowned of depression, I know God will be there to make me smile in little things.

Post number 2

Ang saya dito mag post, kasi walang nagbabasa. hahaha. hmm. Today, I just feel so depressed, since the people I love keeps growing apart from me. All of them doesn't even seem to care. And she told me that I shouldn't think that way because she cares, and that she loves me. But then I thought to myself, she loves everybody! And she loves them more than she does me. I know it's not right to be jealous, nor is it right to compare friendship or love with anyone, but it just feels terrible to feel all that and have nothing to say about it. I don't know why I'm saying this here. I just hope that no one would read this, as the other blogs. I say I love you as sincere as possible and you don't even react. It's as if it doesn't matter anymore. I can't blame you because of what I did. I can't blame anyone for their reactions because of who I am. I don't know why. I don't know what's the matter with me anymore. amp.

Hi Again [Diary post number 1]

This isn't a normal blog entry or anything. I just like to have a diary post chuchu (as stated in the title)

I just want to express how I feel right now. I feel so blessed, so loved and I feel superb. Starting from the word of God I received today up to the compassionate people around me. "Hahahaha! Yang bespren ko talaga ohh...Cge lang.,gusto nia lang mkasama ka. :) kahit wlang gnagawa." was the words I got from Ate Christel upon telling her that I'm so bored doing nothing in the house of Nay June. It was so touching that I would really want to believe it. And I did. Happiness is a choice, they say. But you would never really understand what that means unless you really make that choice. I chose to be happy, and I am. Even if I know that I have a lot of work to do, a lot of things to study, a lot of catching up to do. To you, you'll know who you are. Thank you for loving me, as a friend, as a disciple, as a person, as Louise. Thank you for being there, even if not always. Thank you for proving me wrong. Thank you for the time, and te pain you endured just for me to learn my lesson. I love you.

Mediocrity: What can be done?

No one is perfect, as they say. We are expected to be mediocre in something, but not everything. Unfortunately, in the Philippines, people do not pay much attention on doing great things. We were supposed to be bad in a few things, mediocre in some, great in others, excellent in more. We were supposed to do stuff other people have never imagined doing. We, in our daily lives, must do whatever task assigned to us with great passion and love. Excellence does not mean doing the job or work perfectly thus doing it with all your best. And this best isn’t just the one time big time “best”, this is the best that is worked for, the kind of “best” that is trained for. You don’t expect Manny Pacquiao to fight the day after you tell him you want to have a fight with him. He will train for months; he will train strictly and intensely. This is what I call doing your best. The reason why Manny Pacquiao chooses to do his best may be because he just likes boxing or because he is thinking of his pride, or whatever reason. Well, we can’t force everyone to love what they are doing simply because we want them to do their job well. But we can make them do their job while having fun. In this way, they will be doing it without the laziness attitude. Before I continue to discuss what to do, I want to explain first why this is such a problem. For some people, their job seems to be unimportant, like being a security guard in a bookstore as if someone is going to steal a thousand worth of books, like cleaning a public restroom as if it is even possible to really clean it, like being one of the many bank tellers we have today as if there were no ATMs. But then everything is made for a purpose. Perhaps they started recruiting security guards in bookstores in case someone might ask a question if they are lost or in case some suspicious looking person goes in and plants a bomb inside the store. They probably hired someone to clean up the mess in a public restroom because it had been so dirty that no person would go inside and stay for more than five seconds. And obviously, tellers were there for the people who want to open an account, to ask questions, to do some business stuff that computers would not understand. Just think, if the three people in these jobs fail to do it, then there could be a lot of people killed or hurt, there could be a public place left unused, there could be tons of people who don’t want to open an account just because of not knowing anything. Now that’s everything’s clear, I would hand out the solution I have in mind. The solution for mediocrity is as simple as enjoying, enjoying what we have and let others enjoy theirs too. Influential people would most likely influence other people in doing such.

The Comeback

Not that my previews blog were great, well, they aren't, but here I am again making another one. It's just that my previous blogs were in multiply and not here. So yeah, I guess I really haven't posted much in this site. :) I have been doing a lot of things lately, seeing to it that I have time for everything I want to do, not knowing that I also want to write. So here I am now, writing. :)

It is not everyday that one would feel terrible about doing one mistake in his life. Well, everybody makes mistakes, it's just how we handle it. It's just how we learn, if we really learn at all. Unfortunately, only a few people understands that. And I pity those who don't. There are people who don't want to have even a little bit of flaw in their works, but look where they are now, they are not the most famous ones, not the most successful ones and definitely not the happiest ones. There's nothing bad in wanting to achieve perfection, but one would just want to give out all their best
and be ready for whatever might happen.

I do have some things to finish tonight, but I still had time to make this blog (it is roughly finished, I know. I'll find time to finish it soon). Cheers!

Comp Sci period

syempre. nag blog ako dito pag may klase. naman kasi. naka gray list lang multiply, facebook... at kung anu ano pang mas matino at mas gusto kong gamitin na alternative. oh di ba di ba... at imbes na makinig or mag-isip ng pang project, nag blog ako...

wahaha... speaking of the project. may naisip na naman akong topic eh. kaso lang... di ko pa sinisimulan. hm. andami(medyo) akong ginagawang petty sins ngayon... di ko na sasabihin kung anu-ano, baka may makabasa pa ng sinusulat ko at file-an ako ng IR. wag na uy.

nasa kaliwa ko si Theresa, medyo malayo, pero siya na yung pinakamalapit eh. nasa kanan ko naman ay ang dingding na pininturahan ng pink at puti... nasa harap ko (lampas pa ng desktop... duh) naman sina Levynce, Peter, Romeo, at Raquel. ayun. hm. bakit ko sinabi yun? malay ko ba.

nga pala... masaya ako ngayon. relatively... kasi kahapon at nung isa pang mga araw, may nakaaway o nagkaron ako ng sama ng loob sa isang taong minamahal ko naman talaga. si Ate June Grace de Ramos. pero ayun. na mimiss ko na tawagin niya akong anak. at sabihin niyang mahal niya ako. eh kasi naman eh. hinayaan ko sarili kong magpalamon sa galit, sama ng loob at selos na rin siguro. pero masaya naman ako ngayon, kagabi kasi nag start siyang ayusin yung mga bagay na dapat ayusin kaya ayun. masaya kasi siya na yung nag kusa. ayaw ko rin naman kasi magtampo, magalit at kung ano pa man. pero ayun. mabuti't unti unting inaayos ang lahat ng bagay bagay. haha. ewan ko lang kung mababasa niya to. malamang hindi. sa multiply nga bihirang bihira eh. hai... haha.

natutuwa ako kasi kanina, bago tuluyang magsara ang gray list, nag facebook ako at nag FFS, tapos binigyan ako ni Joie ng popsicle, la lang. haha. ang babaw eh.

ayun. unti-unti ko nang hate ang comp sci. ang webdev. ang pag code ng ganito. na mimiss ko na ang C++. rawr. sana nag java na lang ako. haiizzz.

malapit na rin ang robotics competition. cheap nga lang kasi sa SM North lang. hahaha. anu ba yan. nakaka asar naman...

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